Next week is the mock Prelim Exams and I only knew it TODAY. Yeah I know it's damned. The whole of next week consists of the humanities and maths papers. The following week will be the sciences. All tests on EVERYTHING. Alright, hell. This is way worse than a crash course revision. 1 week can't revise much, not mentioning to memorise stuff. Well at most probably to revise the sec 3 topics only, the 1st few topics...

And the teachers are PRESSURING the class to get A1 for sciences. How fantastic is that? Very, if u ask me. The god-forsaken time table for the mock prelims is not even in the school calendar. The WORST news of all is that ALL of them are afternoon-papers! 2pm to 5pm. It's the mind-block period! But I guess it's too bad. Complaining doesn't change the future. Too bad indeed. Yeah 1 week more and I'm still here blogging. Heh.

Anyways, to all those music lovers, if you want the music videos of your fav songs, just tell me and I'll put the link to download in the ' [M U S I C V I D E O S] ' section. A simple way to relieve stress.


....C 'est la vie.

9:47 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.

Been sick for the past 2 days. The common one, fever + flu + cough. This morning logged on to Audition and saw quite a number of players, 3/4 of the free-1 channel is filled. When I played, everyone seemed to be in 2 catergories, the sick and the non-schooling. Those who were sick, had exactly the same sickness as me. Guess it's the time of the year for the sickness to make it's comeback. Basically the mindset was, Sick = No school = Audition! Naughty boys and girls

Anyway, it's not like I played the whole time or anything like that. Revised the school work too! Don't want to be left behind although I'm 2 topics ahead for each subject except geography.. Yeah, yeah call me kiasu. Heh. No. It's call diligence. Yeah right, whatever! Good thing that I had my own time these 2 days.

I find that staying back in school is utterly pointless and meaningless, not to mention a huge waste of time.Here I go complaining again. What will the school accomplish by making students stay back till 6pm? What does it hopes to achieve? What does the school really wants? Does it only want the IMAGE of being concerning? Or does it really want the students to succeed? If the answer is too succeed, I'm ready to oppose the school management commitee.

Picture this...
The O-levels are approaching. Not to mention the prelims which is in 1 month time. We students have to revise, we have planned out our own timetable. We are not babies for others to plan our lives for us! If the teachers make us stay back till 6pm, where in the universe can we find time to revise? They make us do worksheets in school and then go through them on the spot VERY slowly. It's irritating to think that they actually want to us succeed. A paradox of our time. By the time we reach home, all of us would be tired. Of course it's only natural for us to have our own rest time. Say, 2 hours? or at least 1 hour. By then it would be dinner time. And then 10pm, we have to do our homework. Until when, you ask me? Usually if it's easy it would take 1 hour plus. If it's tedious and long-winded nothing is hard , it would take me about 2 hours or so. By then it's 12 midnight, and I still have other tasks to do. Luckily there's no more cca work to do. And I would sleep at a time that I don't even bother to check.

So exactly when CAN we get our own time, our own life, our own future, to revise?
The school is just a place where everyone goes. It's no different than a war. Except that this time, we are all in a war to get back our own rightful freedom of life.


....A paradox of our time.

7:26 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.

Finally no more vice-president of the cca.craps But I find that the new ones who are going to be elected, might be incapable to multi-task so much, unless they can WORK properly together. who needs people anyway? Ok. Ok. Wouldn't talk bout cca, boring stuff anyway.

I find that people, especially in class, are so success-oriented to the point where sharing becomes a hindrance. I admit that I'm no different. It makes things worse by being requested to make notes for the Sec 4 students.( elective geog.) Ok so here I am to complain.Whatever! Back on track, this teacher of mine who lives just in the opposite adjacent block is making me to the notes. As usual, I wouldn't want to 'lose face' by making skimpy light-hearted notes. The teacher told me to condense the book.Ya, by boiling it and have book vapour. Imagine trying to re-write a 200+ page book into 30 or so. I'd put case studies, diagrams, figures for people to memorise and write out during exam so they won't have to waste alot of their time thinking and squeezing their brains out just to think of an example. Probably I'll put it in my blog once I'm done with it.

P.S: I do not respect lazy teachers.

I'll be dead if any students see my posts. They only know me as the perfect multi task-er.NO I'm not being proud. But they don't know that I scream in here...

... it's something called Clandestinity.

12:02 AM; Off to own. | It's complete.

It isin't good to be so good. Ok so it's already a clichè.

There's gonna be a stepdown ceremony tomorrow and the cca teacher pushed all the speech-writing to me.So much for being efficient isin't good. It'll last for like..1 hour? or so.Whatever Now I'm supposed to be writing the speech for the president of the cca and myself as well as the 2 teachers. Speaking about the president, I just found this out.

PSLE = President Speaks Lousy English

Ok.lame Saddening to know that I can't give naughty boys detention anymore.KIDDING! But still at least now I don't have to multi-task! Well at least not as much as before. I don't know whether to be sad or happy. A bit of both? Hah.Life goes on. Probably I'll get rusty since I won't be working on terminal server scripts in school or won't be controlling the school network or won't be playing with teachers email or adjusting the school's calendar or...nevermind you get it. Guess I'll be missing much of the job I'm in charge of. Wonder if the juniors will organize a chalet for this year... Sooo love giving them exploding marshmallows last year!!

Well I don't know for sure BUT 1 thing I surely know is that the cca won't get anymore of my money as fund!

Anyways I feel better when letting out stuff. Probably it's just my imagination...

Life goes on...

9:34 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.

Well, having those said. . .probably life is hearing me out?yeah whatever Today is the Listening Comprehension Exam.. Actually there was nothing to study. Seriously! The exam was fun!Yep you heard me, I said fun. I mean imagine if everytime exams would be broadcasted over the radio! And before that there's SONGS! It so totally made me relax before the exam starts.Music is love.

Hope I don't have to re-sit the MT paper >_<
Today is just love. Hope it lasts for a long time.

Oh and AuditionSEA updated quite a fair bit! Considering the NUMBER of times the GMs actually update the game! Yeah and I can literally count them with my fingers I SO love the new songs! 1 of them is a techno! FINALLY the GMs realise that there are better types of music than their own songs made by 'Audition'. And there's this chancing levels.

Usually chance would activate 3 red keys, but this chance level system allows up to 6 red keys. SIX. People! Six! It was so damned fun playing the fast songs with 6 red arrows. I mean now there's something to look forward to, to try and do the 190 bpm with the 6th level of chance.

The bad thing is, there's an option to prevent anyone from chancing in the game. BUT now during the game we can see each other's chance! Whether they are activated or not! It just makes me want to do more in Audition. Sigh. . .life isin't so bad.Hell it's just 1 day and you call it not bad?

Hope it lasts for a long time...

9:58 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.

I sometimes wonder whether do we live to be nurtured or to be judged. A simple no-brainer example for you? Well...

In school when there are tests and examinations, people tend to be result-orientated.They just want to see the results damnit! NOTHING ELSE.Fullstop.Period.End. Means they just want to see good results. No. Should I say BEST-FULL-PERFECT results.Yeah that's it. They want to know NOTHING of what happens in between. Nothing. We are not allowed or forgiven to make any mistakes. But of course nothing is full-proof, loopholes are everywhere. Once we make a single mistake, it would be scarred there for as long as days, weeks, months.You name it. We would be taunted by that mistake. It's not us who are the one that taunt. It's the people, who do NOT own our lives, are the ones that taunt and remind us about the mistake.What's done is done damnit! I would if I could turn back time.

Right, back to the topic, as I was saying, if we make mistakes, we should be guided back on the right path Not to be screamed at to be a perfectionist. I mean why do we go to school? It's not that I want it. To be taught right? So that we can be proper good beings. But the reality? We are judged. By what? Tests and grades. It's not satisfying to get 6 A1s, 1 A2 and a B3. I was freaking told that. I mean WOW, the original purpose of a school and the purpose of the schools now are way off. Just this afternoon when I met 3 of my primary school friends, we were talking about this. What You are reading here is what the 4 of us generally feel.No, i'm not the representative of some kind of campaign against schools. All this is just absurd.

But I guess that's life, as I've said, we can't even enjoy a moment of peace. Well probably during our sleep. if I even sleep that is. Heh I guess I'm really making this blog a place to scream. . . silently shall it be. Good night.Yeah right, what's so good about it.


...I would if I could..if only. That must be the 2 most hurtful words. If only. . . .

10:39 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.

There is no such thing as studying hard now and enjoy later. Probably the phrase 'study hard now and enjoy later' should be changed to 'study hard now and enjoy 15 years later'. yeah right.. What's the point of studying and studying and studying and studying and. . . never mind you get my point. Duh! So who decides what kind of life you shall live? Me? You? Them? Us? Do I care? NO I don't. The timeless chant of that phrase has been bombarded to me since before secondary school? i hate PSLE. Yeah that was it, all for the sake of GOOD FUTURE. Think I know how to plan stuffs ? Probably the messiest person ever. Ok so I should stop ranting.

But just picture this, if it can even be pictured. . .
Keep studying and studying endlessly to find myself in a university, from there do research which will then be considered as a work. Work for? Passion probably. It's the money damnit. And so I'll be working endlessly. I'll keep on working and working, I could just imagine people would start saying to me 'Work hard and enjoy life later, save up money for the rainy days, the cost of living will only keep increasing, faster than ever, higher than ever.' I can see that the cost is my own LIFE. And just when can I have the moment to enjoy? You ask me? I'd ask destiny. If things are even planned out by fate. Oh but I guess planning would contradict fate since fate has a factor of chance.

Then again, I would be studying now to enjoy later. Later I would be working to enjoy even later in the future. I will keep on working and working by then I can't enjoy the things in life that I wanted to enjoy in the 1st place. I'd probably die by then.

Study hard to have a good work. Work hard to have a big fortune. What will the wealth be used for? You ask me? To buy the grandest graveyard in the universe! I guess I'll let that thought sink into my mind later. Now I will enjoy my sleep, at least life should let me enjoy something, even if it's just my sleep, I'd take it.
Good night!
. . .
....The cost of living is actually life itself.

8:58 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.

Finally it's up.... Just trying out having an own blog. I mean I've been helping people create/edit blogs for the past....17? months. Like it will help anyway. So yeah here it is, by the encouragement of some people too. . .you know who you are. Just starting to learn how to blog. Well the main point is that there's somewhere or something where I can put my thoughts/happenings at. Hence the blog. ~

Pardon my noob-ness~

4:59 PM; Off to own. | It's complete.